Running away is not a way to avoid what is in front but is to procrastinate something that you will eventually face. It's just the matter of time, sama ada lama atau sekejap, sekarang atau later. But sometimes aku fikir, how do you face something yang sebenarnya tak ada, but you feel it coming. Paranoid dengan your delusions. Perhaps running away is the best thing.

Mungkin bukan untuk avoid whatever you are thinking, feeling nor happening, but perhaps time for you to think or re-think all your wrong doing, dosa-dosa lampau, any wrong moves atau words that you tak tersengaja cakap that made kau sendiri feel bad.

Dan bila kau lari, secara tak langsung sebenarnya kau mula start dengan new life, mungkin. But still you have your past dekat belakang yang not yet settled, walau kau happy atau feel great macam mana pun, kau sedar one day that day will come. And all the greatness will stop sekejap dan akan sambung setelah what you have tinggalkan sebelum ni siap atau tergendala. That one will tentukan kesinambungan dia.

I want to run. I want to find another spot yang hilang in my hati. I don't know where or what is it. Perhaps semua orang pun rasa macam ada something missing even though it looked like you have everything in the world. Atau sebenarnya manusia tak pernah puas atau appreciate dengan apa yang ada. Mana tahu.

Atau maybe disebalik semua tulisan ni sebenarnya sebab mood swing yang disebabkan bulan yang datang sebulan sekali. I hate you senggugut, i really do. You pissed me off. You do. And what makes it hurt most, bila kau alone and empty. I hate long holidays. Wouldn't it be nice if i have a talking pillow. Look how my mood can conquer the way I write. This is bad.